As much as I try, I apparently cannot remove myself from a situation. The situation frustrates me and not being able to ignore or remove myself from the situation frustrates me even more. GRRR.

I don't understand

I would really like to know how someone can just be okay with a 'relationship' where you see someone once a week or so and are constantly being ditched for no reason. To just take it. IDK how someone could ever be okay with being treated like the backup plan or second class. And then when that person wants to finally do something, to just jump and be there, no matter what you are doing, like hanging out with other friends because you were waiting around waiting for them to say ok. It doesn't make sense! Just because you wanted something for so long, and now you kind of have it, doesn't mean that it's a good thing.

This exact thing reminds me of Sheryl Crow. If you makes you happy, why the hell are you so damn sad?!

Photo Editor (maybe?)

So...Scott and I have been talking about it a lot lately, and he thinks that I should try to be Photo Editor, at least for the summer. And I am totally up for that actually, if not just to give it a shot (pun not intended.) I'm scared of it, but I don't want the to hold me back from trying. The only issue that I really have is that Michelle doesn't actually act like she wants me to take over, which, for all I know, she may. But she doesn't actually ask me to do things or take my under her wing to teach me or anything. If she talked to me, I would be able to get a feel for if she thinks that I can do it, because her opinion actually means quite a bit to me. I hate that she 'asks' me to shoot things by mentioning it to Scott. She just assumes that he will tell me. But you would think that after doing this job for so long, that she would be better about contacting certain people to shoot things. I'm really just kind of frustrated with her and want her to take the initiative and make me feel like she may actually want me to take over. So needless to say, for some odd reason, I worry way to much about this.