I don't really understand how when I am with so many people, how I can feel so alone.

I was at hockey, with friends, and looking around me, at people hanging out with friends, prospective boyfriends, and people who are already dating, it made me think about things that I usually try to avoid thinking about. I'm alone. I sat there, in the midst of thousands of people, thinking about how I want what other people have. I'll be honest. I'm jealous. Being honest doesn't make that feeling go away.

I'd like to think that I am not really as emo as this blog seems, although I may be. I just feel the need to blog when I am emo. Helps get my thoughts out and organized.